I really don't know what to do right now. In one our conversations a while back, Jason told me that he feels bad that I'm waiting for him (meaning not dating or anything), but then he told me that he was happy that I am. I'm kind of confused it's not even funny. I started another MySpace profile for a temprary thing and see what happens IF I start talking to other guys. I'm going to delete it after I talk to Jason more about this. I already met this one guy and got his number and I kinda like one of our Beer guys at the liquor store I work at. It's like now that Jason gave me the "freedom" and his permission, I can kinda start dating other guys. I LOVE Jason with ALL my heart and he is basically my EVERYTHING, but I don't like what he told me because it sometimes gives me the idea that he doesn't want us to go further when he gets back home. But on the other hand, I know how much he cares about me and loves me and feels the same way toward me than I do towards him. Not talking to him for like three months isn't helping either. I miss Jason SOOO much and I hope nothing but the best for us! *Sighs* I don't know what I want to do right now!